January 19, 2007

When did Aaron Sorkin start scripting my dreams?


your birthday is next month.
so is yours.
what do you want for your birthday?
i don't want anything for my birthday.
you always say that.
and you know why?
because it's true?
because it's true.
another amazon gift certificate it is then.
don't waste your money.
but i have to get you something.
i won't be here.
of course you will.
no,not this year.
you're going to get out of here and be good as new.
yes.
and you're going to be just fine.
yes.
and we'll celebrate your birthday.
except...
what?
we won't.
we won't?
because...
because you're already gone.
because i'm already gone.
i know.
but you can still celebrate.
without you.
without me.
we'll see.
okay.

Posted by mak at January 19, 2007 12:26 PM
Comments

I love it.

You love it?

I do. I really love it.

Really, you love it?

I do. Ice cream?

Yes please. Pumpkin. You love it?

The ice cream?

No. Well yeah, that too.

That too?

Yeah.

I love it all.

You love it all?

All of it.

Posted by: bob at January 19, 2007 2:35 PM

Buy him the gift certificate - then donate it to the homeless shelter to start a childrens library...

Posted by: Spider at January 19, 2007 4:19 PM

well, my birthday is next month too.
You just gave me my first gift. Thanks for the tears. Papa MAK left a great legacy in you. Love you.

Posted by: zenchick at January 19, 2007 11:37 PM

That's beautiful. And familiar.

I still have dreams about my Dad, more than a year after he died. He's still alive in them, sick (like he had been for over five years), but part of my life and talking with me.

They're never bad dreams.

Posted by: Matt at January 20, 2007 7:45 PM

Love you.

Posted by: Jenn at January 20, 2007 10:00 PM

MAK, I celebrate Dad's birth everyday. I cry about his death everyday. Yes, this year will be different, yes he's already gone but he's always here inside of me. It won't be easy to celebrate without him or without getting him his Amazon GC but he will still know that we are each going to celebrate that day in our own way. For me, while my heart is broken I can't help but celebrate the day my Love came into this world. It will be a lot easier than the day he left this world.
I love you,
MamaMak

Posted by: MamaMak at January 20, 2007 10:54 PM

Beautiful, honest, essential. Thank you. So much love...

Posted by: MzOuiser at January 21, 2007 9:21 PM

Let's go out and celebrate your dad's birthday -- his life! -- doing something he would have loved!

Posted by: Jodi at January 21, 2007 9:53 PM

I think Jodi has the right idea go do something that you know he would love , and know that he will know of it and smile !! geez could I write another line with the word know in it ...well yeah I guess I can since I just did......hmmm

Posted by: scottk at January 22, 2007 1:12 AM

Beautiful.
And Spider beat me to it: a great idea.

Posted by: derek at January 22, 2007 8:09 AM

Thank you for sharing your feelings so freely. This is very familiar, as Matt said. My dreams of my Dad may not be as frequent anymore, but I still think of him all the time. He still gives the best advice and guidance. I haven't cried in a couple years about him; I did after reading this.

Celebrate. Always Celebrate.

Posted by: jamesdamian at January 22, 2007 8:45 AM