October 14, 2006

A Million Pieces

I returned to New York this afternoon.

Dad's still in the ICU. His vitals are stable, but they've found new fungal and bacterial infections in his bloodstream. And he's still not waking up. They're starting to be concerned as to why. They've done CAT scans, EEGs, spinal taps, x-rays, blood cultures. And no real answers.

It was a long seven days at home. I'm glad that I went. I got to spend a lot of time with Mom and be there for her. I got to see that Dad's in the amazing hands of the extraordinarily devoted staff of the Cleveland Clinic. Hell, I even got to see snow in October.

But leaving without getting to talk to my dad was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. My heart is more than a little broken.

Posted by mak at October 14, 2006 5:11 PM
Comments

That has got to be tough. Our thoughts and prayers are with your Dad and your family.

Hugs, Marc & Jess

Posted by: Marc at October 14, 2006 5:53 PM

I found this blog through a link. I really enjoy your writing. I am sorry you are going through a difficult time. I hope things get better soon. Take care!

Posted by: Cliff at October 14, 2006 6:02 PM

That had to be really hard for you, MAK. I'm so sorry you're dad wasn't able to respond to you, but I believe that somewhere inside he knew you were there and 'heard' the messages that you had for him...if not with his ears, then with his spirit. I pray for you and your family, and especially your dad, many times a day. You are all special people, and it's hard to see you suffering. I know you know that many people are holding you all tight with prayers and positive energy, but I'll just remind you again anyway. I'm so glad you were able to lend support to your amazing mother, and she to you. Rest now, and renew your own energy, and let K give you all the TLC you can abide!
Kristi

Posted by: Kristi at October 14, 2006 6:59 PM

i second what marc said. hang in there and i hope this gets better for you all soon.
xo

Posted by: divinemissk at October 14, 2006 7:11 PM

I'm so sorry for everything you and your family are going through right now. I will continue to wish the best for you, your dad, and the rest of your loved ones. Take care.

Posted by: Kimberly at October 14, 2006 9:38 PM

Every time you post something new, I hope for the best. My prayers go out to you and your family.

Posted by: Rocqui at October 14, 2006 10:28 PM

Ditto-ing what Marc said.

Posted by: Lee at October 15, 2006 2:23 AM

You are making us care about someone we never met or even talked with. It's a good experience. Keep us posted.

Posted by: Joe R at October 15, 2006 11:07 AM

Hey buddy. I am following your journey. I hope you are well. Know that both you, MamaMak, and PapaMak are in my thoughts.

Posted by: Davis Kirby at October 15, 2006 8:27 PM

You are a good Son - not sure I could have done what you did...

You Dad is still in my thoughts...

Posted by: Spider at October 16, 2006 5:06 PM

Hang in there Mak, be strong - many prayers for Dad and family going your way. Tell Mama Mak she is in my prayers as well, hope she is getting some rest.

Angie

Posted by: Angie at October 16, 2006 11:50 PM

These are things you already know but they bare repeating:

1. You love your dad and he KNOWS it.

2. You are held in the power of love from all who know and love you. (Sorry to get all "Celine Dion" on you but it's true.)

Posted by: Ed at October 17, 2006 12:42 PM

Mak, you and your wonderful family are in my prayers. May the love you have for each other give you strength and comfort right now.

Posted by: Cooper at October 17, 2006 11:57 PM

I echo the good thoughts and prayers of everyone else. I'm sorry for your broken heart.

Posted by: Daniel at October 18, 2006 12:39 AM

Yea that had to be really hard on you I am sure. Just know that you have all of my good wishes, prayers and positve mojo focused in your direction. Stay strong! Have faith that those who can do the best for your dad are all around him.

Posted by: scottk at October 18, 2006 4:20 PM

That had to be so tough. Just letting you know we're still here for you and saying a prayer.

Posted by: mark at October 19, 2006 10:43 AM

I'm here if you need anything. Always, as you know, but especially now. Huge hugs and lots of positive energy coming your way. Call me if you want to get lunch or dinner or a drink or anything. I am also not averse to coming over and watching way too much "Golden Girls".

Posted by: Jodi at October 20, 2006 2:44 PM